I really wish someone would invent a thing that writes down what ever you are thinking… I always have so much doing through my head though can never get it out. Every time.I try to it tends to offend someone and I can’t say it….
I swear if I was honest about everything mouths would drop… I can’t just say what’s ony mind, as it will or would hurt someone’s feelings or make them feel bad etc…. That’s why I’m glad I doing a writing course (when I actually get a chance to study) that way I can just put it all in a book.
It gets so lonely here people don’t visit any.more quess that’s just my fault as well….. Everything is my fault I’ve noticed…. I do as I’m told still.not good enough…. I do what I can toake people happy… Guess what still not good enough… People only tend to either talk toe.or see me when they want something…
So screw it I’m just going to be the person I want to be and the person I want my children. To remember. On over trying to please people, I’m over getting bullied, I’m over getting put down though most of all I’m over being told what to do… Like bloody hell I’m 30 years old I’m a grown adult I don’t need to be taking orders from people… And if anyone is actually reading this and getting pissed off about it or feeling guilty about something then the shoe fits so wear it… I’m no ones door mat anymore not going to be pushed around by anyone I don’t care who you are… You could be the pope for all I care