Keeping It To Yourself

So I see a phycologists once a week, and she helps me regulate my emotions and helps me keep them under control. Lately i have been learning how to not suppress them as all emotions are healthy to feel and to express
I have been trying to practice and put into motion what she has been teaching me, though holy crap it is hard. Nearly every person that I know knows I have an anger problem and I’m trying super hard to get it under control. So instead of stewing on it and just letting it unleash on someone when I finally can’t take it anymore i say what i need to say in my head. As she has said its quiet normal to feel what I feel at times
Though as i said I’m still learning and I’m trying my hardest not to stew on things though honestly its quiet hard and about half the time I will let it build it until I snap, then what comes out of my mouth isn’t nice at all. Or people tell me that wasn’t nice of you to say that though you wanna know what? You should hear half the crap I keep to myself that’s even worse. I would honestly love to tell people what I am thinking all the time, though in some situations that would just add fuel to the fire

Another thing that really doesnt help my anger is when people say something that’s really nasty just to be hurtful or spiteful knowing that it will really hurt you, then turn around after and say sorry then go and do it again and again and every time say sorry. If they are saying sorry nonstop and doing the same crap over and over again how much worth is that sorry going to have?????

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Drugs or life?

So yet again I find myself writing about drugs and the unfortunate hold it has on peoples lives 👹
Though it seems like people would rather feed their habits then get their lives in order….it’s pretty sad come to think of it that they have to ruin their lives on a herb or a man made object….
I swear if people spent not even half of the time or energy as they do in finding their next hit in getting a job or their lives sorted that possibly the world would be a better place ✌

Don’t get me wrong I’m not anti drugs though I have seen to many lives and family’s destroyed by the shit

Catch 22 – The Visious Cycle


Wow where do I begin? I’m typing this on my phone so please be patient as it could possibly be all over the place.

Though in life we are constantly faced with a catch 22 so do we follow the good road? of do we follow the bad road?  The good road being our morals and the bad road being that we put our morals aside and do what we think or feel is right? Though with every situation there is a good and bad reaction or response to each of the roads we choose…

How are we meant to overcome thus catch 22? I’m sure each and everyone of you can apply this to some time somewhere in your own lives????

One in particular for me is tonight, its pretty much 10pm domonic is in bed whinging on and off, he is home from child care tomorrow, we have a very busy day, I have had to get my palm in my left hand glued shut as I have a 3cm long long and 3mm deep laceration and we have people from the government coming over for a meeting, now to each of these situations I am caught in a catch 22……

I need to get the place clean and tidy as I havent been able to  all week due to my hand… now if I stay up  all night to clean and tidy up, I run the risk  of waking domonic up or re opening the laceration on my palm or being to tired for tomorrow so with everything that needs to be done with every option there is a good and bad reaction or response so hence the catch 22
Can you relate to a catch 22 situation?

What are we meant to do when we are faced with a catch 22? Sometimes I often feel like I should just flip a coin and leave it to chance. And others I just feel like sayiny stuff it and doing what ever one gives me less repercussions even if it feels wrong or right

Maybe next time I should leave it up to chance

Please share your thoughts or opinions

Crystal Meth


Crystal Meth seems to be on the up rise more and more people are doing it and destroying their lives. 
I have never participated in using Crystal Meth  and I never tend to. I have seen it destroy to many people’s lives. 
I have witnessed the downward spiral people have been on because it has been in their lives
I know people who have used this for recreational uses and it doesn’t seem to suck them in.  Though I have also seen people use it and then been addicted and would do anything for it


The lengths ive seen or heard of people going to is phenomenal and ridiculous in my honest opinion the people who make this need to be locked up forever before they destroy any more lives

Please share your thoughts or opinions

White Wedding -A Necessity Or A Waist


These days its important to have such a big wedding.  Everyone has to go all out and have such a big elaborate white wedding, though in all honesty whats the point?
Like yes it would be lovely to have a glamorous wedding to have a big fancy white dress and a massive 4 teir wedding cake or how about a 4 course banquet….. how ridiculous in my opinion

When you get married isnt the most important thing the person who you are marrying? So why the emphasis on the rest if it????
I understand you want the day to look pretty etc though trust me if you are getting married to the right person it wont matter if you are wearing a garbage bag and eating at McDonald’s afterward

Please share your thoughts or opinions