True colours

It’s funny how peoples true colours come out when it comes to crunch time.
People who you thought you could count on are no where to be found. Then a select few surprise you and come out of nowhere are there for you..

I have had this happen to me, I know I’m not the first and I know I won’t be the last.
Maybe it’s  my circle of friends? Who knows… Though time after time after time I find myself being let down. People who i thought I could count on are constantly letting me down….

Maybe it’s my hormones maybe it’s not though I’m getting fed up by it. This is usually the reason why I don’t count or rely on others for because at the end of the day and come crunch time there is only you when you need someone the most


Keeping It To Yourself

So I see a phycologists once a week, and she helps me regulate my emotions and helps me keep them under control. Lately i have been learning how to not suppress them as all emotions are healthy to feel and to express
I have been trying to practice and put into motion what she has been teaching me, though holy crap it is hard. Nearly every person that I know knows I have an anger problem and I’m trying super hard to get it under control. So instead of stewing on it and just letting it unleash on someone when I finally can’t take it anymore i say what i need to say in my head. As she has said its quiet normal to feel what I feel at times
Though as i said I’m still learning and I’m trying my hardest not to stew on things though honestly its quiet hard and about half the time I will let it build it until I snap, then what comes out of my mouth isn’t nice at all. Or people tell me that wasn’t nice of you to say that though you wanna know what? You should hear half the crap I keep to myself that’s even worse. I would honestly love to tell people what I am thinking all the time, though in some situations that would just add fuel to the fire

Another thing that really doesnt help my anger is when people say something that’s really nasty just to be hurtful or spiteful knowing that it will really hurt you, then turn around after and say sorry then go and do it again and again and every time say sorry. If they are saying sorry nonstop and doing the same crap over and over again how much worth is that sorry going to have?????

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Give an inch, Take a mile

Nobody is perfect I get that, every living person has their faults that includes me
Though why does it seem that as soon as you give anyone an inch they take a mile?? It doesn’t matter where or when, though everyone seems to take for granted a persons good nature, or they blatantly use you for their own gain? Is this hard wired into every persons brain? Is this caused from bad upbringing? Is it just peoples true form??
Some people do this with out even realizing and I’m even know for doing this.
What really annoys me is it when people do it time and time again to someone and they constantly let you down even when you think they have changed, and you decide to give them that inch again they run and run and run until they have enough to hang themselves with it. Though when you finally put your foot down, your the worse person in the world and their true colours show
I don’t know if its more sad or pathetic
What would you do if this happened to you time and time again? 

Eating Like Pigs


Nothing is more annoying or frustrating than hearing a grown person eating with their mouth open or hearing them shovel the food or drink into their mouth and hearing them chew every single mouthful I shit you not… I would rather sit next to a cow it’s down right disgusting, not to mention bad manners and bad form
I’m sure everyone has their own pet peeves though bloody hell my 14 month old has better table manners than some grown adults 👪🚶
I’m not perfect actually far from it though I’m sure if someone told me that a baboon had better food etiquette than me, I would change what I was doing wrong or repulsing the other person with… Though nope not in this house it’s like there is a sign on the front door  that states

As soon as you enter this house, please make sure that you manners are left Here before


It might not be that much of a big deal to anyone else though it pisses me off that much I get turned off my food and physically can not stomach anything else